Confirmation of the "call"

This past week was an interesting one. While I was working all week, Kirsten and the boys spent the week at Winema Christian Camp at a yearly camp/conference that we attend called Week of Missions. Missionaries from around the world come and share great messages, testimonies and miracles of God with those who attend. Our boys have fun in their classes learning new things about Jesus and of course playing. The water slides make it especially fun for them. But for me, it becomes a time of reflection on what God is doing in my life. This year I attended the opening and closing sessions and it greatly impacted me. During the week however, I had to work so I had a lot of time to myself. And this time turned into an amazing time as I reached a new level of committment to my Lord.

It is amazing to me how God speaks to us. I cannot fully explain how amazing he is! And I so want others to know, but as the Bible says, when you are not of the Spirit, things of the Spirit will seem like foolishness. This I have come to realize as I talk to friends. I feel like I am in another world sometimes, and in a way, I am. For me (as Paul so elequantly put it in Philippians 1:21), to live is Christ, and to die is gain. These words have new meaning for me lately. In the past few years several people in my life have passed on. This has got me thinking about my own life and what I am doing. Am I doing what the Lord has made me to do? In all honesty, I don't think I am. Yes, I work for a Christian college and am serving the Lord in this way, but this is not the end! I want to be obedient to the Spirit's leading and to take those steps of faith that God calls us to every day. EVERY DAY!

Yes, I want to live as though I am not alive, as though Christ is who is living through me. That is what we are all called to as Christians. Those who do not live that way are simply being disobedient to what the Lord has commanded us. Judgemental? In fact, yes. We are called to be judgemental. How in the world can we stand up for what we believe in if we are not?

Simply put, I heard the voice of the Lord telling me this last week to live fully for him. Not just my job - my life. And my specific "calling?" He has called me to go out into the world and make disciples. Not just here where I am at, but to go. Will I be obedient to this? Am I willing to lay everything (my house, all my possessions, my agenda, my money, my family) at his feet and follow where he leads? I want to see others come into a deep, personal relationship with Christ, one of obedience to him. I want to be used by him for HIS glory, not my own. Why? He died on the cross for me. There is no other reason.